Your Beauty Disgusts Me

Did you have just the best VD ever yesterday?  I'm not much of a VD person, but Josh surprised me by taking me to lunch at Cheever's.  It's the little things that mean the world to me.  It was just the two of us having lunch like adults.  It was the best.

Sometimes I feel like I love him so much I'm afraid my heart will burst.  Our life isn't perfect.  We fight and yell but in the end, when I go to bed at night, I know there's no one else I'd rather fight with.  Being in the same room with him just makes life better.

I realize it's a day late, but I'd like to tell Our Story.

Before I met Josh I lived in a one bedroom apartment.  Next door lived my BFF and downstairs lived our boy BFF.  One late February night (I know this because there were Girl Scout cookies present) Boy BFF hosted a poker night for his buddies.  Being the adorable single girl I was, I decided to go downstairs and play Dealer.  Several hours into poker night He walks in.  He had on dirty jeans, a black shirt with a white thermal under it, work boats and a red beanie.  He had just gotten off work.

Somewhere Dreamweaver started playing and everything slowed down.  I was smitten from the second I laid eyes on him.

He sat down next to me and I dealt him in.  I flirted and made hilarious jokes.  Or so I thought.  Apparently I did not come off as smooth as I was in my head.  I had no idea how serious he takes poker.  I thought we were having a good ole time but the night ended and he didn't ask for my phone number.

{I later find out he thought I was cute (obviously) but he thought I was dating Boy BFF}

Anyway, I thought about him a lot over the next six long months.  I had a crush, but for different reasons I was very anti-relationship, anti-marriage, anti-anything that had to do with making compromises in my life for another person.

August comes around and we all go out for Squish's birthday.  In case you haven't figured it out, Squish is my husband.  I've actually come to think of him as two different people.  When he's all mine and being a dad and a responsible adult he's Josh.  But before all that he was Squish.

Right, so we go out for Squish's birthday, only Squish wasn't there.  So Girl BFF and I dance the night away and around midnight Squish shows up.  And girl, let me tell you, it.was.on.  We sat around and chatted the rest of the night.  He finally asked for my number and a few days later he called.  We texted each other and talked a lot but it took a month's worth of convincing by Girl BFF and Cousin to get me to admit that I really liked him and I wanted to see him and him alone.

Once I admitted that, we have seen or talked to each other every single day since.  After two years of dating, we got hitched in Vegas, by Elvis.  We bought a house, got a pug, got a kid, bought another house and now here we are.

There have been plenty of fights, plenty of yelling but like I said earlier, at the end of the day it is worth it.  I've never been scared of him leaving me and I've never wanted to leave him.  Every struggle, every tear, every laugh, every compromise, every second has been worth it.  He is the one I was meant to be with, to build a life with.

So happy late VD Squish.  I love you so much I can't stand it!